Friday, June 29, 2007

Positive Mental Mojo

T minus three days until the big trip to the Philippines and I'm fighting to get over a COLD!! Too many sleepless nights during mileage buildup and injury rehabilitation and I guess you could say that I was asking for it. But I didn't ask for it, so all I can do now is stay positive.

That said, here are three positive Mia-thoughts to get my training-mental-mojo and general-mental-mojo in check:

1. On Tuesday, I ran an easy 3-miler at a 9:00min average pace. Despite the brevity of the workout, I accomplished my goal to keep my splits fairly even at around 8:58-9:00mm. And I did. Woot.

2. I'm really excited to see family (and go to my brother's wedding in Taiwan) and to do some Mia-style traveling and adventures since my jet-setting hiatus after having the BAMBINA. No more stressing about the logistics of traveling with a 2-year-old; this little girl is going to have a world view that elected leaders should have.

3. So far, this summer has been filled with precious moments with family and friends. Our time with my family in East Lansing and my friends (Anna's Titas, Titos & Uncaws) in Ann Arbor and those who have come back for visits from afar, life is good.

Not to jinx myself but since I'm finally starting to get better, I also have the possibility of running tomorrow as yet another happy thought but really, the below pictures says it all:

Anna's BFF.


One can only guess what our delinquent friends are doing here...but they never fail to put a smile on the face.


Stay posted all, I definitely intend on keeping you updated with the scoops. Just wish me luck on finding internet connections :)

Friday, June 22, 2007

Registration for The Rat Race

I've been able to reflect on a conversation with some family friends as I sit here, baggy-eyed, in front of my computer finishing up a should-be-publishable paper and finalizing a list of Ph.D. and other graduate programs to apply to this fall. My friend innocently asked, as she imagined her two-year-old son as a future American high schooler:

High school in the United States isn't as bad as they portray it to be in the movies, is it? I mean, with the way they treat nerdy kids (already she assumes her son will be a nerdy Asian kid)? I want him to excel in school but I worry about how he'll be treated, etc.

I was surprised by my response:

Actually, I think it's worse; because being 'cool' not only means being the varsity jock but also being the straight 'A' student, social butterfly, and champion of community service. Basically, the creme de la creme of American high schoolers should be the best at everything.

Whoa.

And so, I unwittingly sign myself up for The Rat Race. I mean, did my childhood experiences really lead me to believe that this is true? Well, obviously it did but to this day, it's hard to wrap my brain around this unrelenting sense of elitism that I find harder to shake than an addiction to crack (despite never actually having done crack - i swear).

So far, I'm proud to describe my life as being nothing short of audacious. I have learned how to love and live life to its fullest while overcoming the challenges that I can only describe as my remedial emotional intellect. But I am still coming to terms with keeping my sense of unfulfilled ambition in check. Because, yes, at times I have the tendency to be the best at everything for all the wrong reasons, whether by my own standards or by those set by the U.S. News Rankings and other bogus institutions that I allow at times to rule my life.

It is also ironic that despite my strong sense of social justice, I have already concluded that my comparative advantage with the struggle is on the research end. Indeed, my desire for a life in academe and disdain for any 9-5 job where I must answer to another human being other than myself pretty much secures my place as a certain classification of MISANTHROPE.

And so it is that I have a newfound romance with Running. Because in our solitude we are developing a trust - a trust that I will take care of my body so that Running will be happy. If I don't, Running will call me out and keep me in check. And when we're together, Running will make me feel better when I'm sad. And when I'm pensive, Running will help me hash out my thoughts and remind me, with our existential excursions, that a balance with mind, body, and spirit is necessary to my being a good mother, person and advocate of the change I want to see in this world.

More to the point, my relationship with Running is absent of the bullshit that I allow to get in the way of my honestly, living my life. Because with Running, I understand that I'm the only one who can hurt me. With Running, the progress is real and so is the pain.

So today, I'd like to withhold my registration to The Rat Race and bask in the glory of another great excursion with Running. Lots of room for improvement (my splits are all over the place) but great nonetheless:

8.69 miles | 1:18:51 time | 9:04 avg pace
1- 8:31
2- 8:41
3- 9:04
4- 9:08
5- 9:20
6- 8:50
7- 9:17
8- 9:31

Cheers to not selling out, people!

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

Progress on my Pissed-Off-9-Miler

I ran my ass off today. And it felt great. I stewed in the pain of budding blisters on my feet, pleased with my being a masochist in the making. I gave the middle finger to the metatarsal pads that required some adjustment and I ran harder in an act of defiance against my stupid new hydration belt that bounced loosely on my hips; it is clearly one, perhaps two sizes larger than I need.

It annoyed me that I was equipped with so many gadgets (see 'My Gadgets' in the sidebar) -- a sign of my paying deference to the advice of Runner's World articles or else, just a sign of my American consumerism at it's best.

But if you haven't already guessed, everything annoyed me today. Because sometimes, when moments in life have you back on your heels, you tend to be a bit irritable, emotional even. So for a cynic like me, a 'bad' day on the sliding scale must be a really, really bad day.

But after today's run, I'm beginning to think that my 'bad' days translate in to 'very good' running days.

Mile 1 - 9:05
Mile 2 - 8:50
Mile 3 - 8:41
Mile 4 - 8:58
Mile 5 - 9:11
Mile 6 - 9:03
Mile 7 - 9:13
Mile 8 - 9:22
Mile 9 - 9:30
TOTAL: 9.08 miles | 9:06 avg pace | 1:22:48

Considering that I was running 11:00 minute mile long runs just two weeks ago and really needing that day of recovery, today was fast. The crazy part? I felt fresh at the end of my run.

Not only was I able to stretch out my legs, it occurred to me that these days, running is the one thing that I can consistently count on to quell my negative space. After almost 4 months of consistent running, it's great to see/feel the progress.

Thank god for my Pissed-Off-9-Miler.

Monday, June 4, 2007

Dexter Ann Arbor 10K


My alarm rang at 5:38am but I was already awake. I awoke maybe an hour earlier to the discomfort of sun burn on my back. That's right, fine time for sun burn! But ah well, I thought to myself, it was great hanging out by the pool with Anna, next time, I'll be more careful.

Just like Amby Burfoot's Principles of Running suggested, I laid out my race gear the night before and like a zombie, proceeded to put my clothing on. I yipped in pain, however, when I pulled on my sports bra and found that the tight fit was really irritating my sun burned back. Son of a #)%$&!! I decided not to worry about it--pain builds character or at least, pain will remind me to put sun block on my back the next time I decide to lay out by the pool before a race.

After my standard pre-race breakfast of one slice of whole wheat & peanut butter sandwich and 8 oz cup of coffee, I nudged my Dad, who was sleeping soundly on the couch and told him it was go time. It occurred to me then how long it has been since my Dad had to one of my 'sporting' events. He chauffeured me proudly to and from soccer practice for years and was one to never miss a game. Around friends and family, he bragged about how small and yet strong I was on the field. He'd ask them, did you know that midfielders and like the point guards in basketball?.

On the way, he asked for the hundredth time, so how far are you running?! 10K with K meaning kilometers?!

6.2 miles Dad, and that's right, K stands for kilometers. Don't you guys use the metric system in the Philippines?! (I know, I know, still the smart-ass daughter.)

Since the race is point-to-point, I hopped on a bus from downtown to the start and began to worry when it started to rain. I wasn't worried about the rain, though. I was worried that the rain might get to my iPod or something but I figured it was pretty well protected in my arm band.

When we arrived at the Middle School staging area, a good one hour before race time, everyone was inside chattering about the rain. I made my way to the gymnasium, coped a squat and started listening to music and sipped on my lemon flavored Propel. I was trying to focus and envision running like a gazelle but I'm a people watcher. So I watched and sucked in the nervous energy in the room. At one point, this woman, clad in pink, gold jewelry and fully done make-up walked past. Wow. Beautiful! You're gonna run like that? Ok, then!

See, when it comes to sports and anything else, really, I never go for beautiful--I tend to aspire for badass. But how badass can you feel when you know that you'll likely line up with the 10:00 min pace marker at the start?! *Shrug* I was just happy to be there and taking part in some organized physical activity. I was determined to have fun.

With the start twenty minutes out, I decided to jog on over in the rain and start warming up. It was a real bummer when we ended up starting twenty minutes late. There we were, in the rain, packed like sardines, waiting and hoping to finally get moving. You're messing with my warm-up, I wanted to scream!!

When the gun finally went off, it took a few minutes for the crowds to clear and then almost perfectly, the rain started to let up. The problem was, my leg felt like jelly at this point for some reason. Almost as if they could buckle at any minute. I repeated to myself to stay calm and stay focused. More importantly, have a good time!

It felt like I was getting passed the entire first half of the race. Not good for the morale but I reminded myself that I would likely be passing those fools once they realized they couldn't keep up that pace. (And as you can see from the picture above, I sprinted past a bunch of them on the last half mile of the finish.) On the turn, it was really exciting to see all the leaders whiz by...WOOO HOOOOO, I screamed! Pick it up, I thought to myself, you've totally got this--push yourself.

Some of you may know that I've been struggling with my left foot. I stayed off it though for the past two days and for the first time (of course I had to pick a race day), I ran with metatarsal pads to help ease the pounding that was making my poor foot suffer. By mile 4, however, not only could I not feel my three little toes, I had to go to the bathroom SO BADLY. So I did. In a 10K, but not after sharing a few choice words with myself. What an effing waste of time! I'm sure I would have been fine had the start not been delayed (see how expertly I can shift blame?).

The last 1.2 miles into the downtown finish was uphill. I noted to myself, amidst my excitement to finish, that I need to work on pacing and particularly, I need to focus on my tempo runs. Because either I'm not running at a steady pace or everyone else around me doesn't.

After that, I felt free to smile and wave at the photographers and cheering fans on the sidelines. You know they're hard core when they were willing to stand in the rain, which at that point had let up but had been on and off all morning.

I was a little annoyed with myself that I had held back as much as I did up the hill. I'm not sure why I did it because when I got to the top, I was hardly winded and was far enough from the finish line to see the clock. It was an all out sprint to the finish and I was thrilled to see that I had made it well under my very generous goal of anything-under-one-hour.

Clock Time: 58:38
Chip Time: 57:55
Avg Pace: 9:20

It was great to see my family at the finish, especially Anna, who asked, Mama, you went running?

Excited I said, Yes! Mama went running and actually did pretty well for being relatively out of shape.

Oh, ok. Hood job Mama. (She pronounces her Gs and Cs as Hs -- go figure, she's two.) Anna's thirsty.

Ok, we can get something to drink, baby. What are you thirsty for?

Ice cream. *big grin*

Enough said, right?

After my race, I took my post as a loud and obnoxious fan for those running the half marathon. Hopefully I wasn't too annoying but I know for myself, I appreciate the screams of support to pick it up towards the finish if for no other reason than not to look like a chump. My signature screams: You got it, you got it! Way to be! In my excitement and overzealous encouragement, I sprinted to the finish with my training buddy, JZA, when I spotted him on the hill. I figured, he deserves EXTRA Mia-encouragement *wink*